I just spent the larger part of my morning on the phone hoping for leads to an obstetrician who will give me a trial of labor. It seems that so many doctors are opposed to both vaginal birth after cesarean and vaginal birth of twins; so throw my desire of a vaginal birth of twins after cesarean in there, and you start feeling like there is little hope.
The doctors I’m currently seeing haven’t given me an answer either way, but one midwife I spoke to this morning, upon finding out which OB practice I’m with, warned me that I need to get out of there as quickly as possible and said that with them I don’t stand a chance. The problem, she said, is that they aren’t all on the same page (as I began to discover at my last appointment). However, I won’t completely give up on them until (and if) they nix my idea all together. And if that happens, at least I’ve started the grueling process of finding a credible doctor who will give me a chance at labor. (I did find a possible lead, by the way, pending review of my medical records!)
I do understand that no matter what doctor I’m with, certain factors will have to be just so in order for me to have a vaginal delivery of twins. It’s not that I would refuse a Cesarean to the point of endangering my babies’ lives. But I do have a deep desire to once again experience the beauty of natural childbirth, and I am praying very specifically and very often that all these determining factors will take place in order to allow for that. I know that God hears my petitions and knows my heart, and it’s only in Him that I can place my trust.