The nearness of God hasn’t been so real to me in a while as it was in the wee hours of Sunday morning.
About the time Travis and I were getting ready for bed Saturday night, an overwhelming feeling of nausea overcame me. I knew that eating a little protein would perhaps help, but I was already past the point of being able to eat. (If you’ve ever had morning sickness, you probably know what I mean.) I laid down in bed hoping the nausea would ease off and wondering if I was coming down with something.
I slept for a couple hours until my full bladder awakened me. As I stumbled back from the bathroom and climbed into bed, my half-asleep husband asked me if I was feeling better; and I told him I was too tired to be able to tell. A few minutes later, though, I knew without a doubt that I wasn’t feeling better. As I lay in bed attempting to fall back to sleep, the feeling of nausea again swept over me–this time so strongly it was keeping me from sleep. My mind started spinning with reasons why I might be feeling this way, and then I realized I hadn’t felt my babies move at all during this middle-of-the-night wake time. This realization brought to my mind a whole new realm of speculations, and I then began worrying about my babies.
As an automatic response to my worries, I prayed rather unexpectantly, “God, are both my babies okay?” I was caught totally off guard when instantly one baby started a series of very active movements followed immediately by the other baby doing the same. I knew without a doubt not only that both my babies were indeed okay but also that God had responded to my simple prayer as quickly as if we were conversing face-to-face.
Even still as I reflect on this I am utterly amazed–maybe even a little surprised–by the nearness of God. What exactly was I expecting when I threw up that little prayer? Nothing, I guess. But God, because He hears my prayers and because He cares for me, answered me plainly as automatically as I had inquired of Him.
Praise God that He can use something as unlikely as sleep-preventing nausea to reveal Himself to His children. And praise the Lord that He is near to all who call upon Him in truth (Psalm 145:18).